So Many Questions, But No Doubt

And like Christopher Robin tells Pooh you will find in that moment, "You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem...

Are there moments in your life when you wonder if you could have lived your life differently, would you?

 So, you believe that when God closes a door he also opens a window?  Right?

Last Sunday I reaffirmed my baptismal vows as I watched the Christening of someone else's child.  The child's name was Addison Grace.

Addison Grace.  It was like a bolt of lightening ran through me when I heard the priest say her name.  Spontaneous tears spilled from my eyes.  Memories brief, yet a lifetime, ran through my mind in the flash of an instant.

Twenty years ago I lost a baby whom I named, Addison Grace.  She was the twin sister to my son, Cooper John.  While he has thrived in our lives, Addy has lived in our hearts alone.

Is it how high you build your dreams that makes a difference or how high your faith can climb?  Is what matters how much you accomplish, or how many lives you touch?

Are you shaped by the circumstances in your life, or how you handle your circumstances?  Is your comfort zone a place where you can be you?  Is it where you are who you are?  Could it possibly define the reason you are dependable, constant, loyal and reliable or...

Are you more laid back and go with the flow?  Does that mean you're not rigid and you're fun and carefree and spontaneous?  Is that the way everyone should be?

Should you change to make someone else happy?  Do you think that people should love you for who you are, or that you should become someone that people will love?

Why do I ask so many questions?

Life is but a brief moment.  The years go by quickly and old age arrives suddenly before we have an inkling.  People desire so many things and waste their days in vain.  Some yearn for money, others for power, yet others for glory and a higher station.  But when death's moment nears and they look back at the lives they've lived, they realize they've been happy only during those moments when they have loved.  How about you?

I'm so blessed by having loved.  I have loved deeply, thoroughly and even when there is no gain but,  I've never loved in vain.  Because I am always blessed by having loved.

And ever has it been that loves knows not its own depth, until the hour of separation. "Kahil Gibran"

But, at the end of the day, there is one thing about which I have no doubt.  Quoting A.A. Milne,  when Christopher Robin tells Pooh, "You will find in that moment you're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem...and smarter than you think.  Promise me you will always remember."

Addison Grace, I promise I will always remember.  You are written on my heart.  Because I have loved you, I am happy.

And this I know for sure ~ I'm honored that I write this little blog and can share with you my thoughts and the beauty which surrounds me every day.  You have been my heart lifters, my self esteem boosters, my dream catchers and my good listeners.  THANK YOU for hearing me when I write, for looking at my thoughts through my photos and for responding with love.  The colors in these sunsets keep me warm no matter how cold it gets outside or inside my heart.  And I love you more than that.

Blessings,

Tia